Some of you are thinking right now, "What is he talking about?" Well, I'll explain. When I had my double hernia repair surgery in December, I started having really bad pains in an area that was not near the repairs. A few ER visits later and I was diagnosed with acute Diverticulitis, but on my post op appointment with my doctor, he said that he suspected it could be cancer, as sometimes it can appear to be diverticulitis on CT scans, so a colonoscopy was scheduled. If it was diverticulitis and was bad enough, I would have to have my colon resectioned to fix the issue, if it was cancer, we would have to see the severity and plan accordingly, a lot of tears and fears that day.
Today, I had said colonoscopy and it was not diverticulitis. There was a precancerous polyp in my colon, so, he was correct. Luckily, it was early enough that he was able to get it out and it looks like there wasn't any that had spread. Tears for good reasons now. Several times (especially during the prep day before when I couldn't eat), I thought of just rescheduling and eating to my hearts content. I mean, it's when you can't eat that everything on TV is food commercials, and EVERYTHING looks great, even if it's food I don't like. I'm very glad I didn't, and let me encourage anyone who thinks they might have an issue to get it checked out, ASAP.
In my mind, I ran through all the worst case scenarios, cancer, surgery, and what treatment options I would have if surgery didn't work. I have a tendency to do that, as a professional hypochondriac. While it was scary that it was what it was, I'm very thankful that it wasn't as bad as I feared.
I'll close out this brief entry with a reiteration, if you have pain or problems, get it checked out, don't wait.
Until next time, dear readers...
Friday, January 17, 2020
Tuesday, January 14, 2020
To Grow (Fall Forward)
It's never too late to grow. It's never too late to admit your mistakes. There is an amazing speech by Denzel Washington, in which he says it's ok to mess up, it's ok to fall, but fall forward. Learn from your mistakes, learn from them and make better decisions and choices. We all are imperfect, and we will mess up, we will falter, but we should take those moments as opportunities to better ourself or others.
In my life, I've made many mistakes, some big, some little. Always, on the stumbling blocks I had dwelled too much on them. It takes practice, but even the worst negative can turn into the biggest positive in your life. I've had close friends and relatives depart from this world, and I harbored many regrets, most commonly that I never let those people know what they meant to me. Sure, they might have known, but I would have preferred that I made it absolutely clear how much they meant to me. The solution? Simple actually, while you have those you love, tell them exactly how much they mean to you, don't let them ever wonder how you feel. Sounds a bit mushy maybe, but it's not always like that. You can tell a coworker\friend that you respect their work ethic, or their dedication.
Now, I said it was simple, but if you are like me and a confirmed longtime introvert, it may take some practice, but the benefits are well worth going out on a limb with your feelings. You both benefit from the act.
I guess this post is mainly an affirmation of some changes I'm actively making in my life. To all of you, my readers, I do appreciate all of you, even those who message me to let me know that they liked my post, but in paragraph 3, section 5, I used "to" instead of "too." You all play a big part in my life, and I am grateful for each of you.
There is a project I'm working on that I'm documenting, and I'll share in a later post, but I think a lot of you will be able to relate\appreciate it.
Until next time, dear readers...
In my life, I've made many mistakes, some big, some little. Always, on the stumbling blocks I had dwelled too much on them. It takes practice, but even the worst negative can turn into the biggest positive in your life. I've had close friends and relatives depart from this world, and I harbored many regrets, most commonly that I never let those people know what they meant to me. Sure, they might have known, but I would have preferred that I made it absolutely clear how much they meant to me. The solution? Simple actually, while you have those you love, tell them exactly how much they mean to you, don't let them ever wonder how you feel. Sounds a bit mushy maybe, but it's not always like that. You can tell a coworker\friend that you respect their work ethic, or their dedication.
Now, I said it was simple, but if you are like me and a confirmed longtime introvert, it may take some practice, but the benefits are well worth going out on a limb with your feelings. You both benefit from the act.
I guess this post is mainly an affirmation of some changes I'm actively making in my life. To all of you, my readers, I do appreciate all of you, even those who message me to let me know that they liked my post, but in paragraph 3, section 5, I used "to" instead of "too." You all play a big part in my life, and I am grateful for each of you.
There is a project I'm working on that I'm documenting, and I'll share in a later post, but I think a lot of you will be able to relate\appreciate it.
Until next time, dear readers...
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