A lot of you know that I'm currently in a medical position that working isn't possible. The alternative for now is to stay at home, and either read, clean house or watch TV. I admit, I do a lot of the latter.
I've got a lot on my plate, but everything takes time. With all this "free" time, I've did a lot of reflecting. Reflection is good, but it's really what you do with what you learn from said reflection. There are a lot of things in my life I need to work on, some I can do on my own, some I can't. For instance, I can really get back to writing on my own, but as for my medical issues, I have to rely on professionals for that. That being said, it takes the correct professionals, as I have found that some of the ones where I live should go back to school. For my GI\hernia issues, there is a particular surgeon I've seen who I'm now convinced should not be allowed to do anything regarding GI and hernia issues, as I now have worse problems than when I began seeing that doctor. I won't mention names, obviously, but I have filed formal complaints to the hospital and state agencies.
Enough of my complaining, what I really want to talk about is the parts I can work on by myself. As I mentioned, writing is one of the key areas I'd like to get back to focusing on, so little by little, I force myself to sit down, open up my book in progress and write. A little more each day goes a long way to the end product. That made me think (the philosophical part of me kicks in), if I make a little progress each day (on anything, not just my writing), then I can see the change, but others can not. Sometimes we make a lot of progress (any progress is great), but if we depend or rely on the opinion of others for validation of that progress, we will be let down 99% of the time, and that in turn will cause us not to progress any more.
Right now, there is a lot of negativity in my life that I'm having to deal with. Don't get me wrong, there is a lot of positivity as well, it's just that the negativity level is too far up the meter. I do my best to deal with it, in my own way. I can not rely on others to tell me I'm doing well handling it, because everyone, and I mean EVERYONE has their own view on how things should be handled. Guess what? I've got this. I can and will deal with everything, but just as progress on my book, the progress on dealing with the negative people and things in my life is slow as well. If you remember the inventory process that I've mentioned several times, there are people on this inventory list that I can not (or will not) cut out, no matter how negative and downright mean they are. In the end, I love these people, and in their own way, I know they love me.
To wrap this up, I would hope that your takeaways from this rant are that 1) Any progress is great, and 2) Don't look for others for validation.
As always, feel free to write me with your comments\questions\concerns and I will respond, as always.
Until next time, dear readers...
