At the moment, I am looking for direction in my life. Being honest, I’m not where I want to be, and I am looking for the first step to get to where I want and\or need to be. Do I want to spend the rest of my life at my current job, and living in my current situation? No. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job, I work with some great people, and I may not live in a palace, but I’m happy to have a place over my head.
The ways of the universe, under God’s command, have placed me where I am in this moment for a reason. It’s not my job to try to find that reason, honestly, it’s my job to learn from my situation, what got me here, and try to better myself. I’ve said it before, but the only person I’m in competition with is myself. I just have to be better today than I was yesterday. I feel like I’m doing that, to the best of my ability. Everyday I learn something about myself or others that I can take to heart and work on\with.
Do I want to be single forever? No, I really don’t, no matter what type of front I put on. Finding that someone to spend the rest of my time here on Earth with is not an easy task. I have met some wonderful people that will always be my friend, no matter how anything else worked (or didn’t work) out. I am grateful. My heart is thankful for everything, good or bad, I am thankful. It’s not like I’m trying to hide myself away or anything. I am putting myself out there, I am trying, and maybe I should be, or maybe I shouldn’t be, I don’t really know. I know that I want to take an active part in my life and not just watch everything pass me by.
I have many friends. I’m not talking about Facebook friends, I mean people I’m friends with in real life, you know, that you can talk to, not just text to. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, has an opinion on what I should be doing, or trying to do. That’s great, I appreciate input. The thing is though, it is their opinion, like I said, so it is what they think from their point of view with the amount of knowledge they have about the situation(s). I listen, I don’t just hear them. Who knows, I might get that one bit of inspiration from a friend who is actually talking about something else. I mean things work out in mysterious ways sometimes.
I’ve been continuing writing a chapter in my book that I know will never be read, its a chapter for me. This chapter really captures a lot of my heart, and although I am releasing a lot of knowledge about myself in this book, what I am writing now is something I will share with no one. Call it a more in depth journal entry, or what have you, but getting it out does help, ever so slightly.
On a final note, the podcast is taking off quite well. I’ve gotten a lot of feedback, more good than bad, so that’s a sign, right? Well, I’m going to let some (maybe) good news escape here - I was limiting my podcasts to 15 minutes for several reasons, but I’ve had an overwhelming response and many have asked if I can address x issue, but to do so would increase my weekly record time, so I’m removing that limit. I’ll address everything sent to me up to the point I record. Woohoo?
Until next time dear readers...
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